Decision making: The struggle

"Crying is allright, but eventually you will have to stop and make a decision"


There comes a point in our lives where we have to make decisions. Decisions that will decide our future for this life and the life to come. Some decisions are more clearer than others, while others may live you in a state of deep self-doubt. You know that point when you begin to doubt if you even capable, strong enough, mature or wise enough to make the decision. Well I have been through those a couple of times in my life. Feeling like am in the middle of two dark paths in a forest and I have no idea which one will lead me back to the safe house. In fact I went through something like that no so long ago. It felt like am  having a brain freeze when am weighing my options. Considering the decision I had to make, I felt even more lost knowing that I had options. But which was the right one?

“The problem, simply put, is that we cannot choose everything simultaneously. So we live in danger of becoming paralyzed by indecision, terrified that every choice might be the wrong choice.”― Elizabeth Gilbert,

This couldn't have been more true for me. I mean I have heard people say my heart says this and my mind that. And ohhh boy did I not finally get a taste of it. Listen not that I have not made big decisions before but this one seemed to be the biggest of them all. The struggle was real.I would be very certain on my choice at night and doubt it the  morning. Now then one part of my mind is saying this and the other that. All in the fear of choosing the wrong one because you are not sure of neither. And the question is can we really ever be? Proverbs 12:25 Anxiety in a man’s heart weighs him down, but a good word makes him glad.

Philippians 4:6

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.
It is not easy, to not stress, to not worry. Especially knowing me, I panic over the smallest of hiccups. Time was moving and a decision had to be made. However I still had no idea. All I had was more and more anxiety. I remember one of the last night before the decision was taken - I had to wrestle with the lord over the matter as I felt like am drowning in a pool of confusion. I needed him to show me the way, because I can never trust my choice.The options were so close to each other that they seemed almost the same. That is what frustrated me the most. To the point where I almost went like - hau, either way - same thing mos. However as I spent more time in prayer it became clear they were not the same. The devil is so sleek in deceiving men. Hence you should Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.. We should never be blind to the fact that as God is giving according to his will, the  devil is also out there trying to satisfy our will - trying to counterfeit our Godly interest . So our logic, our human reasoning is not a wise choice to rely on when it comes to almost anything let alone life changing decisions. 

James 1:5

If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him.
This was my prayer and continues to be. If you truly desire to do God's will, the Lord will never hide his choice from you. Its a daily matter though. Its not in the supposed 'life changing decisions'. It is in everything we do that we need to seek his wisdom and will. If we are constantly doing so in little daily matters, we shall be able to face the life changing moves with steadfastness and gladness. Also be not ignorant to God's voice as he speaks to you in various ways, such as experience and advice from those around you. Proverbs 12:15 The way of a fool is right in his own eyes, but a wise man listens to advice.
Attitudes of decision making will vary from person to person depending on the personality and the type of decision needed to be made. However if there is one thing that the Lord taught me from that experience and continues to date, can be summarized in these few words “It's not hard to make decisions when you know what your values are.”― Roy Disney Know your values and beliefs. If you are true to them so will your decision be.

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