thubelihle maduma

"Let go and Let God", words we always encourage our loved ones with when they seem to be having trouble with moving on. "Let Go and Let God", words we wish to apply into action when we see that there is nothing more we can do in a situation but to move on. "Let Go and Let God", words that carry so much meaning and life, words that can renew strength and strengthen faith. However "Let Go and Let God" are also words that are so much easier said than done. December 2015, one of the best times of my life. Not only did I have my first missionary camp experience, but also got to meet the man of my ‘dreams’. Could things be any more perfect, I mean spiritually I was doing well, I think; academically I got distinctions in all my modules; family was well; health was on point; friends check and now intimately too… I mean what more could a girl ask for. Fast forward to 2016 later in the year, the relationship ended because of distance amongst many o...

So it seemed, that it was cool, for everyone to be in a relationship but me. So I took matters into my own hands and…ended up with him. Him, who displayed the characteristics of a cheater, a liar, an abuser and a thief. So why was I surprised when he broke into my heart? I called 911, but I was cardiac-arrested for aiding and abetting, ’cause it was me who let him in, claiming we were “just friends.” It was already decided for me by the first date that even if he wasn’t, I was gonna make him “The One.” You know…I was tired of being alone, and I simply made up in my mind, that it was about that time so I decided to drag him along for the ride, ’cause I was always the bridesmaid and never the bride. A virgin in the physical, but mentally just a grown woman on the corner in heat, who was tired of the wait, so I was gonna make him “The One.” he had a…form of godliness, but not much. But, but, hey, hey, I can change him, so I’ll take him, I mean he’s close… enough. Ready to...